my ipod mini, my johnlewis white pillow case with blue flowers, my white mouse - are these the only things left unclaimed that i have a legit right too? honestly speaking there are at least a dozen other things that I look at and still think - hey that's mine. not that i really want them anyway. but not that i want someone else to have them. nearly 10 months after and i'm starting to wonder if it will ever completely disappear.

and if that thing that will make it disappear will come soon?

probably not for the next nine weeks. i guess i can accept that. i don't even have time to think. i probably won't have time for distractions... although, sometimes i think there is always time for distraction.

... and never enough time for sleep.

back home.

sunday evenings in kuala lumpur always feel the same. always on the cusp of something new. a rare concoction of anticipation and stasis.

works starts tomorrow. i am just hoping that it is worth it, because right now i am kind of wish i stayed in stanford for the summer. work was one of two reasons to be in malaysia this summer, so it better be worth it.

i can't believe i've been home for less than a week. it feels like forever. life here is soo different from school. i can never understand how i can spend the whole day doing stuff and accomplish nothing in malaysia. i have no idea how i am going to work on my thesis (among other things) this summer. i hope hope hope work will inspire some sense of motivation in me this summer.

maybe the real difference between home and school is the way i am.